I've often pondered if this guy was as bad as I remember. I mean, kids are mean, right? (He was the paladin in example 4 and the bounty hunter in example 3 from this blog post) Everyone says and does stupid things when they’re young. But I think I've figured it out. With years of perspective and maturity, I have to admit that it probably wasn't all his fault I found him annoying.
I was a big fucking twat myself.
In all honesty, I am probably the first really annoying gamer I ever encountered. Obviously I didn't realize it at the time, but looking back I was a total dickwad in high school. I looked down on people, belittled them, and generally made an ass of myself. I loved to make snarky remarks and comments about people to get a laugh or make myself look smart. I got in trouble with teachers a few times for it, and I certainly didn't have many friends. I'm kind of amazed I had any.
I don't think I've ever flipped a table. But I did punch a hole in my parent's ceiling during a particularly heated game of Baseball Stars for NES.
Fun fact: my wife loves to remind me how much of a jackass I was back in high school. That's why I love her. She keeps me humble.
I am deeply embarrassed by my attitudes and actions when was a teenager. When I see obnoxious gamer nerds these days I shudder because they remind me so much of myself. I just don't understand why I acted like I did. Being an awkward nerd in a small town was bad enough - why did I try so hard to alienate those few people who had common interests to me?
I've got you, babe. Duh, duh. Duh, duh. I've got you babe.
So to anyone reading this who knew me back then (and I suspect there are a couple of you), please accept my heartfelt apology for being a douchetard. I was young, and I was an idiot. I'm not that much smarter these days, but I'd like to think I'm a little more empathic. Or at least polite.
If anyone else has regrets about being an annoying gamer, please share them in the comments so I don’t feel so bad. Or hit me up on Twitter @CDGallantKing and we can ruminate together. If you forgive me (or feel bad for me) please share this post with those handy buttons below.
(A variation of this question came up in the February D&D Blog challenge. I didn't get to it at the time but I thought it was an important conversation that should be revisited.)